For Goodness Glory Sake
God is Good (part 2)
the health journey
The Nature of God’s Glory – His Goodness
My health journey is not desirable. I actually just returned (a few hours ago) from a few days spent in the hospital. A few nights ago, I ventured to the ER because I could hardly breathe. I also started a new prescription drug that can cause pulmonary clots or asthma, and as I’ve been gasping for air… there were many unknowns.
For the past few days, I’ve felt like I’ve been suffocating, and I would cry out for “mercy!”
My health journey of bleeding several times per day (Crohns-Colitis) for years (YEARS!) while struggling to attain a state of remission, has left me begging for mercy as I can relate to the woman in the Bible with the issue of blood in Luke chapter 8.
…The Emergency Room first sent me home with an inhaler and said to return if I continue to struggle. The chest x-ray didn’t reveal anything serious. I came home in the middle of the night. A few hours later, I went to breakfast with my family, wrote part 1 of this blog post, but by mid-afternoon…I was gasping for air again. My chest hurt and I could feel anxiety entering my body with each gasp. I returned to the Emergency Room for a CAT scan to reveal that I ruptured alveoli in my lung. It will heal in time, but I may struggle to breathe for weeks. I’ve now been home for a few hours after a few days in the hospital evaluating my lungs and colon. It’s just one more challenge to add to the already existing challenges. BUT, the alveoli could’ve released air in the other direction (instead of toward my chest) with serious consequences… but that did not happen. I will boldly say…
God is Good.
For family and friends, it is difficult to understand my journey. The roller coaster of physical pain and emotional struggle is quite a ride.
Some days, I feel the strength to carry out with plans to meet with friends, attend homeschool activities, or to run errands and simply be a typical wife and mom. I always tell others that I don’t want to stop my life and that “God is good.”
Then, there are other days when everything must cease and I must rest in God while presenting my petition to Him … for hours.
I cancel plans, I rest, I drink fluids, I take supplements, and I cry out from my heart for His mercy and goodness.
Will you be good to me in this way, God? Will I see your mercy (and healing) in my life? How will You sustain me today?
Do I believe God is good? Do I believe He is still good when He responds in ways I do not comprehend?
I know God is good – no matter what takes place in my life. I’m seeking to embrace His sovereignty. There was a time when I might have said that His goodness is revealed through what He does... but now I realize that He is good … because it is His nature. He is good – regardless of what takes place in my life (and in the lives of others around me).
He is good.
I’m inspired to continue my petition to see His glory in goodness through healing! I’m also encouraged to know that despite my weaknesses, iniquities, failures, health battles, etc… that I’m not disqualified for His goodness because His son’s blood on the cross covers me and qualifies me, and I cry out,
“Have mercy on me, a sinner!” Amen.
God is good.
The Lord will be my strength when I feel like I can’t breathe – literally or figuratively. With each gasp for breath, is God on my mind? Is Christ my survival and purpose for each day? Each moment? Do I think of His suffering on the cross? Do I bless God (and not curse Him)? Do I intercede for others in prayer in the midst of my own trials?
There are times and seasons when so much is tossed at me. How do I posture my heart and perspective?
Do I continue to engage in the relationships around me with thanksgiving in my heart? Do I embrace the joyous days and moments? Do I surrender to God the expectations, relationships of disappointment, and struggles?
Do I remain hopeful while making my petitions for mercy and healing?
I want to focus on – His goodness – when there’s no quick fix.
I don’t grow distant from Him when things are not going my way.
I want to trust Him with my life and proclaim…
“For Goodness Glory Sake! God is good!”
“For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.” (Psalm 100:5, NIV)
Planting God’s Seeds of Hope
*Brook Joy writes articles on Faith, Life, Culture, and her personal journey with Health (IBD). Brook is a chocolate-loving wife & homeschooling mama (and a Christian for 20+ years)… planting and growing God’s seeds of hope at missionzera.com